Pretty soon I’ll be 25 years old so I can now justify having a mid-twenties life crisis. But just to do a brief look back on the life I am currently leading, I really haven’t had a good time until like around October of 2009. I guess in a way my life changed for the better whether I wanted it or not.

In a way this show has helped me a lot outside of opening some doors to the career I want. I was kinda a homebody due to a traumatizing situation that occurred several years ago and having to be forced to live my life outside my house did wonders for me in regards to that problem. Though at the same time it was like a mirror reflecting back on me what was wrong with me at the time and it was proven from all the not-so-kind things people said about me on the interwebs.

I kinda do not like the image I have now, which I can’t really blame on anything or anyone but myself. My friends tend to go on autopilot with the nice comments about “being true to myself and w/e” but we all know how reality works.

I’ve been spending a lot of time just observing people’s behaviors and it’s interesting to see what makes a person “them” in terms of their behavior, their clothing, their attractiveness, and their mentality. This lead me to a grand epiphany about myself.
I needed to change who I am.

I first decided that changing my image all started with a name. I want to be taken seriously and have respect. I decided to test for this using the interwebs under various personas such as ChicagoFameGirl, CryingW01f, and EpicNiki…but then I settled under:
NicholleSoft
A couple of people asked me if it was because I was siding with Microsoft but actually it was because I’ve always liked videogame companies like SquareSoft and Ubisoft so there you go.
Another thing is that I prefer that people call me by my name: Nicholle….rather than Nikki or Nicky (I let it go but whenever I introduce myself to people I do tell them that my name that I prefer to be called by is Nicholle)
My second phase would be my appearance. I’ve decided to start a healthy regimen in order to get back into shape and I need to start wearing more non-tomboyish clothes. I think this really started bothering me as my roommate and friends would sometimes introduce me to men I found myself attracted to as “one of the guys”. Which is the worse thing you can say btw.
I guess finally the last thing I need to change is my attitude/behavior. I really need to stop being such an introvert and just live my life the way I want to. I’m tired of being polite and docile and quiet. After I turn 25 I plan on always being sure to make my true feelings known.

Play the Guitar on Google ;]
I always wanted to recreate this scene….only to say that line.